10:17 saint j 19 jan '16

Will you express to me your present moment? This is an interesting concept for the fact that you can not. If you are reading this then you are not with me. You would have to move from your present moment, separating yourself from it in order to tell me stories of it. Even if I were right next to you there is a moment of transfer between what it is that you are doing, and explaining it to me. My improper question thwarts my intention of staying present. Yet what's interesting is that same person who is asked the question is then forced, in order to answer the question, to think of their own actions surroundings and feelings in this present moment. Albeit it's in reference to me and my question, but all trees start as seeds. In my opinion and experience those who comply are generally grateful for the interest in them. Those who don't often aren't able to accept help as easily. I think there is at least the impression in human minds that the perceptions of others help define your reality.

da ville househip 6:13 pm may 23 13

people seem to be losing connection to each other. even now i am guilty of it. talking only of pasts assessing the history. the now filled with substance. soon relaxed vibes with detached minds will come. mindless musings repeating droningly. these people don't all seem to want to try and expand on themselves and in this way we differ. the more i note the more i see the opposite, almost contrasting the feelings. although the difference is now i am less engaged in with the situation.

east st, DAville 7:56 am may 11

sometimes we need to make ourselves do things. sometimes your higher conscience tell you to get out there. do something you don't want to, or are afraid to do. you can find something amazing in everything. you can FEEL no matter what. lead by example, everyone you know follows. everyone you know takes in the things that you say, and they take it to heart. whether or not it seems like they do its true. the only thing that there is to do is to put yourself out there, get out of that comfort zone, take risks. without that there is no life.

Lsc Dhall 5:58 may 8th

things are losing their solidity lately, i feel like i've been thinking too much maybe. i'm getting slight discomfort from it. i feel like my brain is just giving up on what it used to believe. on the things it used to do. reality is peeling all around me and i'm getting a little concerned. i'm not concerned for the fear of negative effect of others, i do not have any intent to harm, rather concern that i will be deemed 'insane' and put away for it. all i am doing is trying to expand myself. to be one with all and connected to the universe. i know that no matter what i am always connected, but i'm very much so beginning to experience different layers of connection. i feel like i'm climbing ever higher. i want the reality torn from under me, i want to be informed that everything i've grown to know is wrong. i want the challenge of learning again and again what life means.

LSC Dining hall may sixth 5:15

i have noted the difference between "nerds" and "regular folk" it seems to boil down to intellectual vs material property. the "nerds" seem to only really care about material things that gather them intellectual property, whereas the "regular folk" seem to see the material as the end result. obviously this is an observation of the masses not individuals. the biggest thing that keeps sticking out to me is choices in personal style. its sort of the intricate webbing that blurs the line between the masses and the individual. you can look through a crowd and see a thousand flat brimmed ball caps, all accompanied by a thousand tall tees. but when one looks at the subject matter within, they see new things. on the scale of the individual the rules for the masses do not apply. i can look at cheech over here and see he has a flat brim and a nike tee-shirt. i can look at the mass grouping of people he is from and define what he most likely enjoys in life. but i will not reach the individual this way. the grouping of people form a personality within itself of which cheech is a part of, but it is not who he is. much like your cells are a part of you, but its not what they are. it would seem that even if you did get to know the individual they will still continue to just be another massing.

Lyndon Village 5:45 cinco de mayo

maybe he's tired, maybe he didn't hear me, maybe what i said was unimportant, maybe its not normal to reply to everything that's said to you. i do not know. what i do know is i am seeing a person that pays more attention to what the people on the tv are doing than he does the food he is eating. the people he talks to are also on a device. they are also more than likely sitting in a room half paying attention to their television half a quarter paying attention to their media device an eighth paying attention to their friends and thoughts. i fear for the loss of cognitive reason, i fear that people including myself are being sucked into the system. maybe i'm paranoid. it's pretty likely, id say. but id also say that just because i'm paranoid doesn't mean i'm wrong.

Dining Hall LSC 5:00 cinco de mayo

the ideas i have seem strange even to me. i never quite know what i am saying. but somehow it does all seem to make sense. these people all around me crowding and compiling. all of the so desperate to seek approval from one another. but mostly they're just hungry. people of certain styles seem to group together. you don't see to much diversity of styles. people at these tables appear to all share in each-others auras. the emotions i am seeing, it almost as if there are different layers involved within each of these groupings. people are looking outwardly toward others. likely to seek information of the outside. this is happening more often at tables with less people at them. these people are content at certain levels of company. i don't really know at this particular point where this blog is heading but i will certainly keep posting.